I have made it through to the 2nd day of 2012 and I thought I didn't. I had isolated myself throughout the cross over from 2011 to 2012.
2011 was really a year of ups and downs. It was like an emotional roller coaster ride each time I thought about it and so it wasn't something that I want to party over to usher in the New Year as I am really unsure of what's awaiting.
Reading through my last blog entry, I spoke about moving on from someone. Yeah I did moved on but I fell into another hole just as I was done climbing up from it. Someone else came into my life which sometimes I wished that person didn't. I struggled with the thoughts time round of moving on every other day, because it is just another person who I won't be able to share something with. I have been telling myself that I shouldn't be such an influence to someone so innocent and who probably has a bright future ahead. I couldn't resist my emotions and somehow ruined it between the two of us. I guess that person didn't understand my intentions and have probably misundestood my good intentions somehow. Well, it ain't that bad I have been telling myself. Just the right opportunity for me to give myself an excuse to move on from you.
In 2011, I have also done a lot of things that were against my own beliefs. I've always said no and telling people how bad it is but yet I have ridiculously got myself into this. I actually feel like crying right now thinking how crappy I am.
Anyway.. resolutions for 2012.
I failed to achieve my resolutions in 2011 but this time round, I would like my resolutions come true. I would want to save up this time, with a target for me to meet. I would also want to pick up learning a new hobby, and thats playing a ukulele. Lastly, I hope to improve on my races and my body as a whole.
Three resolutions. I will make it happen.
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