Its been a while since I last posted. Working as usual like a workaholic.
But yup. I feel hurt again. Its all about making the wrong choices of friends and probably treating others who probably don't really deserve that kinda care and concern from me.
At times I thought, if you really care and cherish this friendship, you would have at least dropped me a note to say 'hi.. how are you and all' but you didn't. Busy Busy Busy. I am busy too but I took the effort to spend time doing small little things for you and you. We call ourselves buddies.. you said you won't abandon me like how the rest did but in the end what happened? I am all alone, not sure who I can turn to and people who I would I like to talk to simply have no time for me, cos they probably have other things now.
Is this really what we call friends or really just friends on FACEBOOK? or am I just doing too much and expecting too much?
I got to admit... it feels terrible these days. You so much wanted to find your friends but you duno who you want to contact, not because you have alot but some simply bo chup you, and probably never reply you. Maybe I take the friendship between us as something very important and maybe to you its just another 'friendship'.
I am not sure but for this is:
I am telling myself that you and you will be the last. I won't want to think that I am disturbing you, I won't want to think that I am wasting your time, I won't want to think that you really treated me as a very close friend cos it doesn't seems to be the case.
I need to spend more time for myself. I have been doing much for others. I am not asking for anything fantastic in return. All I asked for is the care and concern. But it a message or what, it simply brightens up my day but so far, as my friend you have failed the basic needs to even communicate and its a disappointment. I think it's gonna be a while before I would want to talk to you and you. By then, we could have just drifted apart just like how it happened for Y and K.
Move on I have been telling myself. I will make my life.. better without you.
